Monday, February 28, 2005
* 7:00 PM *
feeling much better already..just now mood went to the lowest point..dont know what's the reason also..need someone to talk to..but none of them reply..probably i dont even have 1 true friend i guess..well never mind..had a talk with daddy..felt much better..pour out all my unhappiness, stress to him..and i broke down..a long one..it seems like i have controlled it for very long..always putting a strong front infront of my friends etc..but deep deep now i'm not feeling good..just like the rain..when the clouds are getting heavier, it just rains..started to worry whether will i get gastric..keep having stomach pains for the past 1 week..especially yesterday and today..hope for the better..hope everyone is fine..today just seems a very bad day to me.. where an obstacle begins..and i have to bear the burden myself..the pain..where no one will understand..haix..
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, February 26, 2005
* 1:15 PM *
long time never blog so i shall come here update what's up. ! nothing much to mention also..same old things, projects and presentations. maybe mention about thurs ba..it's lover's de bdae.. someone older than me le bleahx =x suppose to end lesson at 5..but skip tax lect den meet up with mich and they all..met at somerset and went to cine..went to catch a movie "hide and seek" not really scary..just that the sound effects really can make your hair stand..haha..catch the 520 movie..then went to find food yet this takes us more than an hour..terrible..went to buy a mini cake for her and poor her being splashed abit of water outside the paragon but guess she's having fun on that day =) end up we walk back to cine to eat ramen. keep walk here and there till our legs have stepped some lemon le..then went to take bus home with mich..ask her to alight at my stop and i accompany her till her bus comes and we all reach home safe and sound =p hope that lover will the presents wor..and you better really use ah if not kok you le =x [ 19 le wor..so must be more mature ma..dont tapai bully ppl =x ] lala ~ did you ppl see sth ? i never type anything right lala ~ ok la ~ enough of this..take care and all the best ya ~ and weather is now on and off..so hope you people drink more water and take care =)
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
* 6:54 PM *
a few projects are done..as in qc report and qc presentation is over..fit report has completed..tml juz submit will do..yet the whole day not in a really chirpy mood..whole morning has been dead..real dead..even suqing can sense that..then she keep ask me wads wrong..but nth's wrong..dont worry =) whatever funny stuffs she say..i didnt response to it..until she keep mention about that soya bean shampoo..i started to laugh..during break, chatting with my this gang..has been laughing all the way..laugh until stomachache le..until end of tutorial..start to feel abit no mood again le..dont know why..maybe too stress or what ba..i dont know..started to think about my character..what type of person i am ? hais..tutorials not done yet..no mood to do..maybe later then do ba..i told suqing..wo zhen de hen lei..she say my mood swing kong bu..i say i know..den she still say i depression coming le..maybe ba..maybe gonna to have another breakdown soon..wonder how many breakdown will i have for this semester..hais..maybe..i will..
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, February 19, 2005
* 11:33 AM *
finally submitted MA project..got back all my test papers already..glad that passed..but not a really good pass ya..left with qc presentation..blaw presentation..fit report and presentation.. so much more huh..will try to get on..hopefully..every lecturer is already saying when's the revision lecture etc..make me very stress..this means..projects ending..exam coming..wonder why every blog entry of mine is all about stress de stuffs..tax classwork on thursday..it's writing a letter..my eng pte ltd de..how to write =/ really tired..exhausted..realli tired from all these.. tired from naggings..tired from studying..tired from projects..tired from life..life juz sux..n boring..whatever i do juz doesnt please anyone..i think im such a core..maybe the presence of me in tis world is wrong..i shouldnt have exist..den it can relieve burden for my parents le..den they dont have to be so fan about me..maybe i should..
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
* 9:51 PM *
it has been days since i blogged ba..just managed to finish MA project so come here blog..monday just handed in blaw project..but these 3 weeks alot of projects and presentations.. siao liaos..this fri handing in MA project..but should be ok le..den now left with FIT report..FIT presentation..blaw presentation..QC presentation..ahh..so many presentations..somemore this week i get back all my common tests papers..today got back 2 FIT class tests..and RFA common test..still alright ba..but what i fear most is blaw..really..i never fear so much before..got an intuition that i cant make it for blaw..cos i just hate words..any modules relating to alot theory is my weak point..hais..out of sudden stomach pain again..suddenly feel stress up again..today break time went to a classroom then we talk about projs..suddenly talk FIT..suddenly talk abt MA suddenly talk abt RFA class test..i wan cry le la..y there is so many things to do..endless..after all projects..den will be revision lecture..then exam le..haix..can someone pls kill me..really dont feel like living sia..so many things to do..yet no mood to do..if not is already concussion dao i dont know what to do..everything is a mess..life is in a mess..what should i do..
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, February 11, 2005
* 6:02 PM *
too bored that i come here to blog again..haha..nth to do also yawn..just handed in e MA e-tutorial at 445pm haha..and im not late ! suppose to do my tutorials just now but mommy want to mop the flood so for the time being skive abit..after blogging have to do tutorials already and probably if im not lazy study some pqs..yawnx..tomorrow the shop reopen so tml evening im down for work..mich since ytd nite keep say eat steamboat yet we keep say dunwan lols =x bleahx =p suddenly feel that i've gained weight over this cny..dead man ='( next week duno wad to say..monday pqs test..den tues to fri..a test paper will be back each day..scary..just now tio nag by mommy again..haha..but heck..just now accompany daddy go down to take cab and he sets off to airport..he will be back at tues night..that means monday i have to take bus on my own to school lols ~ hope im able to wake up..=p guess alot of ppl have gone to friends' house bai nian ba..cos msn contact list v few ppl online..haha..guess i've back to my tutorials..take care =p
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, February 10, 2005
* 1:32 PM *
today is cny de 2nd day wor..actually cny is nth much..same routine every year..haha..now waiting for my auntie they all to come my house..so kinda sianz now..but when they come also nth much juz have a meal and chit chat also..cos my cousins not coming oso ma..yawnx..boring man..new yr eve slp at ard 3+ wake up at 8+ ytd..den ytd oso slp at 3+ tis morning 8+ kana wake up..faints..become panda le..haha..den v crap lor..ytd go my relative hse same me so many things lor..say dao i like paiseh n -.-" lorr..boring eh..hmmm heard that some of my classmates tio april attachment sia..dont know what to say now..but now kinda stress up..haha..cos projs dueing soon..yet with this cny period..make us no mood to bother about our projs le..sad sia..monday got pqs test..have to study =( shall stop blogging le..anything i will just update de.. take care and enjoy ur cny wor.. happy new year !
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
* 9:55 PM *
had been busy since morning..woke up at around 9+ then came online to do my projects etc..till around 12+ and i had my reunion with my family and my uncle's family..after that continued to face the screen for projects, quizzes etc etc etc..it seems never ending..and sad to say..i couldn't take it and i sort of breakdown..was trying to complete next week's tutorials..yet left 2 modules.. because really couldnt take it..i was occupied with work till 9..first time chinese new year eve i never took an afternoon / evening nap because really too busy with work..now waiting for time to pass to watch the television programs..hope im able to enjoy myself during these 2 days..hope you people also..enjoy the fun and meeting up with your relatives and friends..but i guess im not going to any friend's house or so..dont have this habit of going friend's house..will feel weird..haha..dont know why..unless got miracle ? lols..dont want to blog le.. happy new year !
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, February 05, 2005
* 1:14 PM *
memories are something that are always carved in your mind
it is something you will never forget
be it happy or sad
be it 1 year or 10 years down the road
it will always live in your heart
yet alot of people chose to think of those sad memories
especially when they are alone by themselves
and they will start to think neagatively
why cant they just think of those happy memories
to make their life happier
be it happy or sad
you still have to live
why dont live the life happily
why make life so miserable
when you are sad
no one will know
only you yourself
when you are crying
no one will know either
only you yourself will know
so just live everyday happily
a real smile on your face
and not a forceful smile
hmm..wondering suddenly why type all these? haha..dont know..just jot down how i feel ba..lols.. mad le..lala ~ already cny mood bo bian..bleahx. ahh ~ so many things to do..sobsob..who can save me ! yawnx*
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, February 04, 2005
* 5:04 PM *
finally common tests ended..thats when cny coming..suddenly feel v happy lols..today after school do proj..den do dao i crazy..lols..i mean e MA..i c so many excel den i concussion le..den reach home ard 230..eh di ah..sorry if i nv reply ur msg ah..cos i was sleeping..lols..den my eyes half open half close that kind..ytd supposed to sleep at 1..yet i lie on bed v long cant slp..so i go and do e past yr papers..den slp at ard 315..den 515 wake up le..den aft tt on n off slp back wake up..abt 6 wake up to bath etc..now my mind practically switched off from projects le..today eat snake day..lala ~ =x nx week so many elearnings to do..sianz man..hope i rem wad to do..lols.. take care and enjoy ;)
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
* 9:18 PM *
one word to describe me now - demoralized. expect quite alot from tax hope everything is alright tomorrow..just now decided to study rfa again..tried out the practice paper..1st section mcq..i only can say im prepare to fail this paper..15 mcqs..i tried 10..yet i failed..even with the frs book infront of me..is still like that..dont know how..being demoralized so come online instead..yet now slacking..think about it..what am i actually doing ? hey, tomorrow is test yet im still online, blogging at this moment ? what i actually need ? what i actually want ? what i wan is just no more stress, but can i ? how i wish i dont have to study..no need to face the stress of studies, tests, projects, exams.. online to relieve stress? nopez, just an excuse to skive i guess.. promise that i will work hard this sem, but rfa just demoralized me. hais..i just hope i can survive through this sem, i will be contented. all the best for those taking tax paper tomorrow..and anyone having common test tml as well..take care..
i will never let you go ❤
