Thursday, March 31, 2005
* 5:08 PM *
yuppie ! 1 last paper to go. =p now eating abit snake, later gonna practice pfs after dinner keke. lalax ~ surprised that i still can survive till now lols. lalax ~ happy happy =p today fit haha. only 2 words * shake head * 19marks left empty coolz lols =x but i still think is better than blaw lols. hope can pass bahs. now machiam after exam mood liaos bleahx.
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
* 9:20 PM *
today blaw paper. to me only can use one word to describe which is terrible. have this strong feeling i will fail for this paper dont know why. tml fit. i studied till documents there then now come here to have some space. really very scared for blaw. sort of abit cried out infront of my gang just now, really cannot take it. the moment i see the questions i knew it. sobz. just hope tomorrow is ok bahs =(
i will never let you go ❤
* 12:30 AM *
sobb blaw is making me mad. making me attitude worsen. hais. all should i say studies ; exams are making people mad and attitude worsened ? i dont know how to memorise, the moment i memorise now, the next moment i forgot part of it. hais. dont know. tired. just hate it - blaw & fit sadded. it seems my sleeping time arent coming back, no matter how much i slept i still keep on yawning. guess i really need a long long break.. just now memorise dao cry, sounds stupid right ? but that's what i did. these few weeks kinda emotion sobz. * cross fingers hoping for the best *
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
* 12:45 PM *
yeah another down. seems like im counting down everyday ! yup. today's MA alright for me, dont seem so horrible as what i've thought, but as usual think the theory questions can just give back to them =x hoping everything goes on smooth and right. gonna take a nap after this i guess, never slept alot last night, or rather this morning. gonna be a panda soon =( feeling very terrify for blaw and fit - the words modules. just hope that time will pass faster, in 3 days time 4pm, i will be free lerx. so near yet so far it seems. hoping april fool come faster, which marks the end of my last paper - rfa. *yawns* today nan de i never slept on bus while i was heading to school, because i was practicing MA questions on bus. haha. so guai ? lols. too worried for it, that's why. but glad that kinda turn out good for me, hoping it wont disappoint me =p wondering tomorrow and thursday, doom's days ~ * pray hardd*
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, March 28, 2005
* 8:22 PM *
ahh so stress now, tried the 1st exam paper touched on the 1st 2 qns me jiu come online le. i keep refer to notes yet my answers keep on wrong. i wonder how am i going to survive for the next 3 days -ma ; blaw ; fit. rfa still ok lor. hais so many formula to memo ! save me ! =*( do dao i want cry le. am i just going to flunk ? 60% nor sad sad. going afk at 830 to continue, hoping i can get everything inside my head. * cross my fingers * my mind is just empty now, heavy, stress and any other words to describe. all equals to one word - fear.
i will never let you go ❤
* 1:01 PM *
1 paper down and got 4 more to go. jiayou worz. today had tax paper, the paper not tough actually just that some things i forgot le. hahas. but it's over so dont say about it le. yesterday offline at around 1am. but end up slept at around 2. supposed to wake up at 415, but i knew i cant make it. so set alarm at 515. hahas. managed to do one more paper and prepare to go school le. but due to im too sleepy, i think i slept on the bus more than studying =x something worse nor. because i was taking bus to 2 stops away to take 154. then when i was at traffic light, 154 went off. then nvm. then i sat at the busstop studying. when i looked up, i see one empty 154 just passed by me =/ so i was thinking guess im late. haha but guess what. 5 minutes later another one came. phews ~ =x then when walking out of the school with meihui, lihui and ziwei, i was there keep zi wo an wei about the papers. haha. end up they all bth me =x because i was saying, 4days to go. then i say aiya 4days = 96 hours only. is less than 100 hours mahs. very fast over de. in addition i still say, to kan de more kai, 4 papers = 8hours only haha. they all speechless =x too high after 1st paper lols. but i guess going to be dead soon worz. sad sad. got to go and catch a nap before i wake up fresh to study. all the best ! =p haha and almost forgot, got friends having presentations this week worz. lover, clara they all. good luck and jiayou !
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, March 24, 2005
* 1:44 PM *
came here to blog again. realise something, it seems i blog more often during exam periods compared to normal school days ? why is it so ? thought should be the other way round ? alot of people are busy mugging into their studies and had no time even to online and chat, not mentioning about blogging. this shows something im slacking. came here to skive again, but gonna back to study table at around 215. was studying since 1045 till about 1. seeing people completing their revisions and im still hanging in the air, feel the stress =*( exam depression again. poor us. 5 papers in 1 week is simply a torture to us. poor TA27 and all accountancy students. bet same as meihui and me, cursing and scolding whoever sets this exam timeslots. i will be thankful by the end of next week we dont end up in hougang chalet :) sounds scarstic but it's true. haha. was scolding more than studying i suppose =x trying to calm myself down but i cant. my poor english standard makes me even harder to digest blaw and fit. look at it, it's already thursday and it's only few days away to our 1st paper - tax2. guess modules that relate to figures are better for me. hais. sighing everyday, bad for health. plus abit of mommy's naggings, totally demoralize me =( wondering - can i survive through ? kinda worried now. i dont ask for much, all pass will do, but hopefully no Ds.
seriously, during all these while thanks to alot of people who have been encouraging me !
`_ weiling jiee * - complaining together and studied for a few hours together =p everything will be alright de jie. dont worry ya, dont forget there's always me around there for you !
`_ jolin loverr * - ke lian her. keep see me hais-ing everyday lols. and keep ask me to study. poor me ~ but thanks for being there to listen all my scoldings =x exams coming up after mine ya ? study hard and enjoy your break well ;)
`_ michellee * - always there to think of solutions for me, thanks alot =p jiayou together kkz im sure eventually you will get what you aimed for. and also, tapai rot and slack around with me de gal haha. poor us =x
`_ meihuii * - seeing you so hardworking motivated me to be hardworking as well lalax ~ poor her always kana me bugged with questions especially before papers, thanks alot =p do remember if you need anyone to talk to, im always there !
`_ claraa * - though we seldom talk, but all those you tagged play a part in encouraging me as well =D take care kkz, study hard, and dont stress up =p everything's gonna over soon. good luck for your upcoming papers !
`_ TA27 * - year 2 is coming to an end and soon each of us will be separately, some attachment, some different electives. but no matter what we will always be as a class ! study hard and good luck. im sure all of us can survive through de.
yuppie ! finish crediting to all these friends le and going off to studying and be good gal =x
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
* 4:01 PM *
still kinda enthusiastic in studying in the morning, thought i will be good gal for the whole day. but sad to say my motivation lasted until 145pm. after which go and cook instant noodles for lunch and took my medicine and came here to chat with jie till now. both of us are so sianz till we dont feel like studying. keep on complaining. no motivation to go on. we know the reasons ourselves. trying to entertain with ourselves with msn game hexic yet failed. looks like going to rain soon. lightning flashes ; thunder roars. feel like sleeping, was having a headache while studying just now. everything seems so tough for me. the period i hate most - exams. make me feel like being a criminal. just like cant go anywhere except staying at home. hais. why must we have exams ? why must we study ? why must we go through all these ? millions and millions of whys. hais. i admit i cannot take up any stress. since i was in primary school, before any major exams, naturally it becomes a habit of visiting the doctor. from PSLE, to O level, to semestral exams, without fail. this time worsened, vistited the doctor 4 times within 3 weeks.
probably you all think im mad to be here complaining instead of mugging into my studies. but i just cant help it. im sick of it. never step out of my house for so long. taking those bitter medicine for 3weeks. all these just make me feel sick of it. sick of every single thing. studies ; sickness ; stress ; feelings. everything seems so unfamiliar to me now.
_ hopes are given to me yet disappointed came to me instead ; hais *
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
* 9:39 PM *
coming here to blog before going off to write my notes, sad to say i didnt stick to my target yesterday and i guess today is fat hope as well. =x kinda slack which i shouldnt lols. please dont slack anymore le haha. time seems to pass very fast wonder why. 6 more days to exam but if console myself exams will be over in 10days =x im mad le haha no wonder i remember meihui they all keep say i always zi wo an wei haha. no choice =x if not too stress. so must see from another point of view. got to go and write notes le, wonder how long can i tahan sitting here at my study table. well good luck =p
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, March 21, 2005
* 10:44 AM *
hardly see me blog in the morning ? because flu & cough are back so went to buy medicine early in the morning. must get to study later around noon time. hoping to complete writing of notes for fit by today. that's my aim. hais sianz diao. study break.
_ hhoping everything is finee *
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, March 18, 2005
* 8:32 PM *
stomachpain again since just now. and abit headache. nan dao my parents are right ? im not fully recovered ? wondering. now this period i should be studying, but how come im online and yet still blogging here ? where has my motivation gone to ? people's status..busy..studying..and here i am blogging..hais..but no motivation to go on le..today had blaw tutorial. first time feel so relax in this tutorial, dont know why. took the whole day yesterday to study 1 blaw topic =/ hais. everyone is busy. i should be busy also. but how come i still can face my comp instead of going study ? dont know le. see how bahs. sobb.
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, March 17, 2005
* 6:48 PM *
hais -
wo zhen de hen lei hen lei -
tired of everything -
naggings -
stress -
or am i giving pressure to myself -
i dont know -
not mentioning about anyone else -
dont keep give me naggings till i cant stand it and being out of here -
sobb -
i did nothing -
why do i deserve all these naggings -
dont understand -
depression -
breakdown -
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
* 3:32 PM *
2nd day of the week, started off by being woke up to take breakfast. usually i dont eat breakfast if i dont have school in the morning ; but this time because i need to take my medicine ; so no choice have to take breakfast =/ after which as usual write notes. but kinda tired after that ; i think because i slept at 230 last night. so i went back to bed at around 10 and slept all the way till 130 =x [ pig ! ] and took my lunch and medicine and continue to write notes again. but halfway through slack off ; and came online. yesterday was kinda enthusiastic in studying. can said that studying the whole day ? i mean writing notes and go through some in my head. tomorrow having blaw mass revision tutorial, need to get the exam papers done before going. but i havent start studying how to do ? i guess i'm going without anything prepared. but i go is because i need to get my past year exam papers and some stuffs. everyone seems so busy. either preparing for exams, else is rushing through projects. hope everyone do take care fo yourself ya ! and all the best ! just struggle for about 3-4 weeks and everything will be over and can get to enjoy ya ! =p
i will never let you go ❤
Sunday, March 13, 2005
* 10:05 PM *
suddenly mood became very good. lols.today went to see doc again.ya cos wasnt feeling quite good.i mean cough came..and the voice still never recover.but now it's getting better ! wootz ~ finally =p ytd mood very low wor.but thx to mich. you really said alot of things that really enlighten me and make me discover that im actually luckier than others ya..because i was keep complaining life sux etc.and she told me this phrase:
"you`re bless with hands & legs ; family & friends. can you imagine those ppl who are handicap ? they struggle in life just to walk lyk how normal ppl did. they hate themselves for what they are now. but they always stay strong and look forward in life. look at the different optical they face and conqure it. don`t ever say life suck when it don`t "
came to think about it. really very true ya.whatever sufferings im having are just temporary and it will be over soon. really luckier than those having permanent sufferings ya. thx mich =p btw, back to my topic .this week see doc 3 times le pengx.tomorrow going back to sch to submit mc.if not duno must wait till when sia. this 2 wks so called study breaks for me.hoping i'll act accordingly to what i planned. getting more and more addicted to tong hua this mv..really very sad story and ending =*( take care and good luck to the exams ! jia you !
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, March 11, 2005
* 9:42 AM *
went for MA tutorial on tues, feeling very unwell. didnt concentrate throughout the tutorial, so end up the tutor keep on call for my name -.-" thanks to suqing and meihui for "donating" water for me..thx alot ~ if not i guess i will cham man. after which went home, i was very very unwell. reach home take temp 38.1 -.-" went to rest awhile for daddy come home fetch me to see the doc. abt 7 e doc came, tk temp 37.6 =/ got a mc for wednesday. didnt attend fit tutorial cos sleep dao hen shuang and somemore nv do hw. lols =x attended blaw revision lect but nv go for rfa tutorial. lols. cos muz complete the 4 statements within 1hr 5mins. very stress. then i will headache again. ytd attended school whole day, was alright. throat started to get itchy. tis morning wake up. voice 99.9% dont have already. under persuasion by parents, decided to see a doc. just went to see. n got a mc again.faints. parents keep ask me dont go school, cos go there cant talk then i cant ask qns. guess im not going. sadded..hope can recover by tml sia..hais.. terrible..feel like crying out le..=*( - disppointed ; demoralized -
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, March 07, 2005
* 11:20 AM *
a brand new day of the week ; monday. never go for pqs lesson today, cos only last lesson. so took my annual leave LOLz =x went to meet mich and lover for the past few days. mich - our warm up session bwg lols. *can shake head le* tml lover having ica, all e best ya..and all e best to her funny classmates too =p just now online and lover told me about her exam timetable. sianz diao. make me think dao i got exams soon. 3 more weeks exactly. continuous papers. feel like giving up. hope i can get motivated to study then can motivate jie to study too ; right =x ever since mich intro me this " tong hua " song. im addicted to it. the mv very touching, very sad.
`_ tong hua -
wang le you duo jiu
zai mei tian dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
ni ku zhe dui wo shuo
tong hua li dou shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
*wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju*
[[ repeat 2x ]]
yi qi xie wo men de jie ju
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, March 05, 2005
* 2:28 PM *
finally everything has ended. this marks the beginning of revision. recalling what happened this week. fit and blaw presentation. blaw presentation gives me the deepest impression. we were told that we can go in to see the first few groups presentations as my group was the last to present. reached school at 10 to start rehearsing. we have already trained not to laugh at our video. when group 3 is presenting, we went out of the classroom, rehearse one more time at the fountain area. it was like damn fast as we were being called to present. well, i was the one who started the introduction. always dont have the momentum to begin. but no choice when i was infront of my classmates and the tutor. everything went on smoothly, until the video plays. i was so called the main character aka the bad person. everyone was laughing, and 4 of us couldnt help it and we laughed. i almost couldnt continue the presentation, but thank god i can. every scenario we prepared have comedy effect in it. we were glad that the tutor like our presentation despite being the very last group of the week for this tutorial classes. we were worried he will be bored after so many presentations. well, all projects have ended. i also have sent my edited part of utm to my team mate. probably eat snake this weekend. went to meet up with lover and mich after lesson ytd. later also going to meet up with them. monday no need to go to school for IS, finally a monday that i can sleep peacefully =p was playing conquer for about 1 - 1 1/2hr. being killed by 1 person. and another person hit me and i almost died, luckily i went to heal myself. and luckily my life is long. going to bath soon and got to leave home. hope you people enjoy yourselves this weekend. pamper yourselves after such a tiring amazing race of projects ! take care =p
i will never let you go ❤
