i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
* 10:10 PM *
11 hours 5o mins to go. wee ~ end up mich brought me out of the house. hahas. bluffed jolin say that i never go and meet them. lols. meet with her classmates then mich go down meet i outside lols. slacking at orchard far east, heeren & taka. xiuhui went to pierce her ear and heard from them she pinch people, lols. tomorrow really cannot go out liaos, if not my ear going to be noisy again. all the best to students getting results tomorrow. * cross fingers * sobz -
i will never let you go ❤
* 1:45 PM *
19 hours 15 mins more. sobz. im scared. save me ~ what should i do. hais. never catch a good sleep yesterday for some reason. today trying to be a good girl & stayed at home, guess tomorrow also bahs. not in a mood to be out. did chores for mommy still get nag, sianz sia. dont even know what she want. nevermind, just shut my ears can lerx. dont care. i more worried. now is 2pm lerx. 19 hours more. sobz. [ o1 ] day - it is getting nearer. * keep the fingers cross *
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
* 10:08 PM *
wee ~ now mood good good hehe =p today 1st time me ; jie & lover go out lolz. lame right, know each other like going to be 2 years le, 1st time got chance we 3 go out together lolz. accompany jie shop for her formal clothes for ibsm. she tried alot and we chose alot of her as well, hahas. waited for mich to come bugis meet us, then went down to jie there de office awhile. then decided very long where to go. then at first i say esplanade de, but i talk crap one lor. then jie jiu say go esplanade, because that time she promised me to accompany me go de. then mich also suggest go there, because they want to fulfil my wish mahs =p then went back to amk, slack there then took 133 down to esplanade there. went to the roof terrace and the gate is open nor, very nice the scenery. never will i forget the overview and the stars. wee ~ the stars very nice. i might sound abit what la, because never go before ma lalax ~then sat down there until 9 nor. mich & jie lie down to see the stars even more clearly, me & lover sit down, i cant lie because wear skirt lolz. learn abit of the constellation from jie, pretty interesting. wee ~ im addicted to esplanade, next time want to go again, hope i got the chance. lolz. today actually never think dao about results de, because really have lots of fun ! BUT the school send a sms about the web enrolment to me & jie, then we 2 there diaos. hahas. thanks jie ; mich & lover for fulfiling my wish worz, xiexie ni men =p * hugss *
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, April 18, 2005
* 3:39 PM *
haha. what a nice day to sleep, with on and off of raining. now my place started to rain again. later going out to have dinner hmms hoping it wont rain that much later on ya. today is already monday, [ o3 ] days - more. sobb. very worried. think of it and i will just toss & turn every night before i can get to sleep. i just have no confidence, really. though i studied hard, that's what i think, yet i just feel that i cant do well, or even win this war. war is over, that's for sure, yet whethere can i win, is another doubt. going to have sleepless nights these few days, especially wednesday i guess. though it's sort of fated already of what grades i can, but i still prayed for miracles to fall upon me. i always believed that if i study hard, i can pass all, but sometimes miracles just dont happen. and my disappointment is even higher. worried * all the best to tose getting results ya, hope everyone can win the war, and is beautifully. [ o3 ] days -
i will never let you go ❤
Sunday, April 17, 2005
* 2:08 PM *
hahas. hardly see im at home in the afternoon during weekends ? hahas these 2 days bahs. lols. yesterday night was discussing which pictures to upload. hmms chose lerx, just that havent load also. haha. waiting to see how mich going to edit become ghost =x wee ~ tomorrow mich got chemistry mock exam worz, jiayou kz. im sure you can do it for your chemistry de. horhor shuling say my bad thing in my testimonial * kok * eat slow no wrong =x as i say just that abit paiseh la. lols. go out with mich & lover & her friends on thurs & fri, im the slowest of all =x shake head. and hor, for mich, talk my bad thing at her blog also ! sadded - why am i being bullied by these 2 people [ mich & shuling ] sobz. i so good to you all lalax~ hit black ball, though wrong, that day dont like black colour ? hhas. though im wearing black. lame * talking crap in process lerx. hmms ~ [ o4 ] days -
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, April 16, 2005
* 10:06 PM *
wee ~ yesterday got the pictures we took on thursday from lover lerx. haha. look so dumb =x will upload it some to friendster. hahas. but wonder wonder wonder, which to upload ? * shake head * today did nothing much also la. be a good girl stay at home LOLz. but accompany mommy to baibai nor, but daddy fetch so hai hao hehe. then kinda tired, so went to sleep at around 830, then just woke up. wee ~ [ o5 ] days -
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, April 15, 2005
* 9:30 PM *
hoho. firstly, wish meihui happy birthday ! wee ~ though is not 18 de gu niang yi duo hua but you are always our kai xin guo worz. stay so cheerful and jovial always kz.
today woke up at 83o. miracle ? haha dont know why, slept for around 4 hours only, abit tired lerx. today run around. hmms. meet di at np at 11 because today he got matriculation, then walk around and slack in the library dao around 12+ like that, then he stayed in school wait for her biao mei, then i have to rush off to find mich lerx. then went to mich house, she go changed out of her sch uniform. then her computer finally no problem lerx. wee ~ then went to amk. and 1 more ! today met shuling lerx. hehe. also a DJ last time at the online station with lover de. then i machiam dont know what, i "illegal" bring her into the pool hahas. =x but luckily no one check hehe. then went to yishun meet lover's friends [ jenny & ahgong ] to eat nor. then hen crap la =x make noise all the way. haha took a bus back to amk then change bus back home. and you know what ! i actually go and count today from morning to night i took how many buses ? 10 ! hahas. i know i very lame la. just nice the number so nice, the mich say concession mahs. * hannor * lols.
sobz. o5 days more. dont wish to face the reality ; can i ?
* waiting for yesterday take de pics =x - waiting for mich. hurhur *
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, April 14, 2005
* 10:57 PM *
wee ~ today stepped out of the house door lerx. lols. erm meet mich at busstop then she late haha, but end up we reach bugis mrt station all also late. eh went out with mich, lover & her friends [ clara, huiping, jenny ] nor. settle our meal and started shopping lerx, me is window shopping haha, the rest mostly got buy dao things bahs. walk dao tired yawns. BUT ! today took alot pictures worz, but not so much of me ? LOL ! reach home at about 9 bahs. chat with ziwei yesterday online, and he was talking about his attachment. heard that very stress but lucky him got people to help him =] jiayou worz all ~
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
* 8:57 PM *
just finished watching dolphin bay half an hour ago. suddenly got some thoughts feel like blogging it down. by the way, this show started just last wednesday, di has been reminding me to watch, thanks di ! because he says it's very nice & touching, and i think he must have know i am rotting at home, so ask me to watch bahs.
about expectations. im sure alot of people have expectations and always pin high hopes on it, awaiting for miracles. when it comes true, automatically you will believe it, and thus vice versa. in the show, the female lead, suddenly burst out saying she hated expectations. because expectations cause one to be sad, to drop tears, end up waiting for nothing. and it doesn't come true at all. suddenly feel very true about this sentence. awaiting reall sux. especially when you know it is just another empty waiting, you will feel even worse. as the saying goes, the higher the expectations, the higher the disappointment. find this very true, have this experience before haha. suddenly i think im mad & crazy bahs. and feel very bored again. hais. having a complex inner character of me + mood swing, which no one can ever understand, not even my parents and close friends i guess. because im used to keep everything to myself, and if 1 day i couldn't take it, i will just cry it out loud, rather than confiding, that's me =)
plus stomach hasn't been good to me, makes me even worse. thanks meihui for your concern when im kinda sick that day, thanks alot and appreciate lots. you are the only one who asked me am i ok etc, xiexie ni =] now you also sick lerx, must take care also ya. =p
_ bboredness killss *
i will never let you go ❤
* 12:44 PM *
yawns * noon time i've already started yawning haha. what a pig ! just took my brunch [ breakfast + lunch ] and here am i come here blogging. listening to 1 of the songs in my winamp list - fen shou kuai le by liang jing ru. suddenly thought of, if a couple really fen shou lerx, can they really be happy hmms. haha suddenly like to hear these type of love love touching songs nowadays, find they are really nice ! =] maybe those who are reading my blog may think im so crappy to blog these kind of boring stuffs, but is my blog mahs, up to you whether you want to read it ? lols. blogging is my way to past time and writing my feelings down - my another companion =p yesterday was alright, peaceful day, no naggins, mommy mood was alright hehe. phew ~ and was flooding back and fro people's testimonials and talking craps online =D as each day passes by, my heart is thumping harder and harder * sobz * then i will think back how much confidence i have for each paper * sighs * counting down each day. the most dreadful period from post-exam to pre-release of results ahhh ! =( * breath in breath out * dont think too much, that's what i've been telling myself. but it seems useless, doesnt work for me ! ahhh !
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
* 2:52 PM *
wee ~ im back to blogging again. haha. just now was too bored, end up what did i do ? be a mommy's girl, do ironing & folding of clothes and mop floor lols. well mommy is going to be back soon, hoping she is happy of what i do bahs, if not my day will be very bad to survive hur. hmms just back to comp and now talking to mich, haha. bth her, talking about her chinese common test today. had a great laugh =p nothing to update lerx. * runs *
i will never let you go ❤
* 12:02 PM *
hoho. recently addicted to my winamp songs, find it really nice wee ~ and thanks to mich for introducing me songs worz hehe. today is already tuesday lerx. time flies worz. next thursday will be the day im sure many of my school people are awaiting for - results. ya release of exam results sobz. nothing to describe me except worried. hais. contradicting myself, of course i wont want any Ds in my transcript ya, but it seemed impossible, it seemed im going to have some Ds inside hais. =( but it's still better than i cant make it right. ahh ~ dont know. so fan now. im just counting down everyday. o9 days to go ='( enough of my sad things, oh ya. finally tomorrow is the day where lover & clara they all end their war lerx. congrats in advanced worz. jiayou for the last paper and you all can really enjoy lerx. * yawns * so sleepy. sleepy me everyday. suddenly thinking of, cant believe that i've survived in these school for 2 years lerx. rather 1 year ++ only. and hopefully can promote to year 3 and this will begin our busy schedule i guess. wondering will i get to be in the same class as my classmates, because it's really hard to work with our classes, i mean those you dont know at all, then you have to know them and have to re-create the teamwork etc. kinda tiring huh. hoping for the best ! missing my classamates lerx ! hoping those who are under attachment are doing fine. but for suqing, see her blog, * shake head * keep on complaining de, scary nor. girl ah, dont worry worz, everything will be okie de. and must drink lots of water and take care worz. =] nothing much to update lerx - gonez -
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, April 11, 2005
* 4:40 PM *
sorry yesterday didnt blog. hmms well today sleep until quite late worz then as usual slacking around norz. was talking to mich & lover, tomorrow they got papers worz. must jiayou kkz. and mich ah you horr, dont keep huat chinese la. although i ask you to get A for absent, but also dont really go listen to me talking crap mahs. lols =x jiayou kkz. looking forward to both of you papers end then can go rot lerx =x thanks clara for commenting my blog worz. unlike lover * shake head * blog is nice just because of the midi sad sia. * kok her *=x
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, April 09, 2005
* 8:53 PM *
just woke up about 45mins ago from an evening nap, felt abit sick and took my temperature, had a low fever. well, i must say my immune really low. * shake head * slept at around 5pm bahs, then slept for 3 hours nor. till now still slacking faints - kinda headache hais. please dont let me get sick again =*( it's so what to eat those bitter medicine and worst still need to get back to the doctor plenty of times within 1 month again ? no way man ! * cross fingers * sobz -
i will never let you go ❤
* 1:58 PM *
today i guess i'll be rotting at home. hmms yesterday accompany mich to queensway to get her things, though it's only 2-3 storeys mostly sell sports stuffs, and finally managed to get what she wants. wen to nearby bukit merah neighbourhood have a walk, and took bus down to amk meet lover lerx. ke lian de mich because wearing sch uni then we going to play pools mahs, so lover has to lend her clothes nor, choose so long dao want zz lerx. for the first time me and mich finally win lover sia, but 1 round only la. they 2 say i very fierce sobz * i so guai where got fierce.play dao around 745 like that. then slack around at amk central then me and mich jiu take bus go home lerx. this morning wake up slack until now. people study de study, go out de go out. me here jiu rotting nor. guess this weekend i'll just rot at home bahs, nothing special going on also * sadded * lonely kid -
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, April 07, 2005
* 4:33 PM *
well i think im going to blog everyday le, because keep slack and rot at home. around 1230 accompany mommy to chai chee then around 2+ i went to singapore post there to get something and headed home. slacked infront of the screen till now. yawns * today my stomach isn't very good, run for toilet trips at least 3-4 times just the whole morning alone.
* to michelle : sick le worz, must hao hao take care, drink lots of water and have plenty of rest worz, hehe. will see you soon de bahs.
* to lover & clara & classmates : if im not wrong is 3 papers to go ya, hao hao jiayou worz, dont give yourselves too much stress ya. take care ! dont tired yourselves from study ! =p
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
* 8:46 PM *
enough of the naggings sobz. tears just flow down, everything that i heard, i experience all hurt me deeply. im just useless not daring to take up anything. im not better than other people, im just a noob compared to others. im not a good daughter compared to others, im just a lazy retarded, lonely person. just take that i dont exist at all, and never came to this world before..
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
* 7:30 PM *
have been finding blogskins these few days. found this plain and dark skin. have been finding since friday yet there is maintenance for the blogkins website. haha. i almost have to redo it. because i click save template changes, then it loads, suddenly i acciedntally press dao clear edits. but luckily it is loading saving, if not im going to cry and redo sia =/ and the midi is s.h.e - wo ai ni, a midi that i have found for very long. hehe. wondering how's our class people's attachment getting along. hoping everything is fine for them worz. hugz. tomorrow lover & clara & classmates start their exams worz. 1week starting from tomorrow, jiayou ! all the best and good luck, you all can do it de ! =D
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, April 04, 2005
* 2:00 AM *
found this on friendster bulletin, kinda true so decided to paste it here :
if a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
if you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go, she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.
a girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
a girl wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.
so if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
because she is the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of your life.
so if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you ruin her life.
when she cry right in front of you,
when she cry because of you,
look into her eyes,
can you see and feel the pain and hurt she is feeling?
think.
which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
in front of you,
and because of you?
she cries not because she is weak,
she cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,
she cries,
because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.
think about it,
if a girl cry her heart out to you,
and all because of you,
its time to look back on what ypu have done,
only you will know the answer to it.
do consider it,
because one day,
it may be too late for regrets,
it may be too late to say "Im sorry".
dont do this to a girl,
you may regret for the rest of your life.
maybe in your life,
she is the only one who loves you the most.
remember this lesson.
find it kinda meaningful, dont know how you people think of it ?
i will never let you go ❤
Sunday, April 03, 2005
* 10:54 AM *
haha abit sleepy now. offline at 230am, but managed to get asleep at only around 330am and guess what i was being woke up at 4am haha. because have to sweep tomb, then was worried about traffic jam etc, so went to fetch my uncle they all at bishan at 515 and headed towards the destination. haha surprised that is only like 530-545 and the place is already very crowded lerx. everthing was settled in about 1 1/2 hours time then we went back to bishan to clear things and headed home. eaten and came online now. haha. wonder will i sleep later. lols. hope you people enjoy the holidays worz. to lover & clara & your classmates jiayou in your upcoming exams ! =D
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, April 02, 2005
* 12:25 PM *
so fan and sianz now. just tio nag by mommy again sobz. stay at home also nag, go out also nag, dont know what she wants sia. people all heading out yet i stay at home yawns* wondering hais. boring weekend for me i guess. just now slept till around 10++ then tio wake up. why cant just me sleep longer =( hais. sad sad. nothing to do sobz. mommy cooked lunch lerx, but i say later then eat also tio say, faints- dont caree the most dont eat yawns*
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, April 01, 2005
* 7:00 PM *
finally everything is over, nightmare is gone. going to have nice sleeps every night hehe. first time do exam until so exhuasted and rush. i did Q1 then skipped Q2 and proceed to pfs, because i was worried for pfs, 55 marks nor. managed to complete the pfs within 1hr 10mins, although abit late, but alright. rushed for q2 within the 20mins, anyhow write haha. but i think should be able to pass but not very good i guess. but anyway all is over. keke. just now after the paper, changed into the class tee and took a few class photos haha. our last meet-up lerx. after which some gone for attachment, some ibsm, good luck and all the best, maybe you people enjoy yourselves worz. my class had an outing, went to eat. haha but i didnt join them, kinda tired and lazy =x lalax ~ now is worried for results, 20 days more. omg. it's like so fast ? but this will worry me when the date draws near. haha. just hope i can continue as per normal i will be contented. lover, clara, michelle you all jiayou kkz. all the best for your exams and tests, work hard worz =p
i will never let you go ❤
