Saturday, March 31, 2007
* 12:00 PM *
woke up with a high fever this morning - 38.7 degrees. ate breakfast but couldn`t finish it + eat medicine. force myself to sit in my room, leaving the fan switched off, to force all my sweat to come out. pretty good method and i`m slightly better but there`s still fever i think. hope all this will end soon. it`s a torture *sighs*
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, March 30, 2007
* 10:12 PM *
suddenly i`m pondering; feel like going back to the past. whereby i will be contented for the little things that i`ve and i was given. a simple life - without any fear; without any worries. how i wish the world can just stop in the past; or if it`s a dream, i don`t wish to wake up.
i will never let you go ❤
* 7:13 PM *
it has been donkey years since i online and blogged. was busy since last weekend till now; managed to online on tuesday night for awhile and virus attacked me since wednesday till now and it`s still ongoing. 2 hours MC for yesterday and 5.5 hours MC for today.
yesterday morning went to see doctor at RMG around my office area [ sore throat + cough ], things were pretty alright. till afternoon i couldn`t stand it anymore, so i requested a MC. went back home, took a nap for 1 hour, ate dinner and went for lesson. this morning wasn`t better, had fever and flu. went to office and settle some urgent things before go to RMG and see doctor again. handover some stuffs and left the office at 11am. today was very bad; almost wanted to faint. legs are weak; no energy; giddy *sighs*
senior is coming on monday lerx; yet my virus never wait for her and attacked me before she came.
thanks to my temp who has covered my work these 2 days and the chrysantheman tea =) hope i will be better soon.
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, March 22, 2007
* 12:04 AM *
tuesday:
had 2.2 progress test. 3 words - cannot make it. though open book, but don`t know what to write + no time to copy. think no hope *sighs* but funny thing is, it doesn`t look like a test. still can eat, drink, chit-chatting (though chit chatting is not allowed). when lecturer passed by, they say hands tired, must rest *faints* supposed to be a 3hours paper, but i took more than that.
wednesday:
had buffet dinner with my colleagues at cafe vienna (cafe vienna is the old name, forgot the new name). it`s a treat from my ex-supervisor, sort of for my farewell with them ? sinful food =( all of us ate alot; omg =\
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, March 17, 2007
* 11:52 AM *
What has life really offered u?
Four people you will meet in life
Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most.
Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn`t love you.
The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most.
He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people`s life?
No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn`t love you anymore, he really doesn`t love you anymore.
When he loves you, he can`t pretend that he doesn`t.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there`s no way he can pretend he loves you.
When a person doesn`t love you and wants to leave you.
You must ask yourself if you still love him,
If you also don`t love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don`t love him,
And if you don`t love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive,
If you like the moon, you can`t just take it down and put it in your basin,
But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person.
Let him become a permanent memory in you life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.
Love him for his good points, and the bad,
You can`t wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him.
If he can`t change to become what you like him to be, you don`t love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him,
You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criterias.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test,
If the relationship isn`t strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.
When two people are in love,
They love to ask each other to swear, to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don`t trust each other, they don`t trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless;
Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry,
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?
Be careful when making promises; don`t make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.
Remember, Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!?
In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying, doesn`t believe; the one listening, also doesn`t believe.
Which person have you found so far?
In the world so big, which person have you found?
And who has found you?
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, March 16, 2007
* 11:59 PM *
my long awaiting weekend is finally here ! actually got undone work, but everyone is eager to go off as early as possible on a Friday. i have stayed pretty late on the past 2 Fridays, thus today i left office at around 6pm.
2.1 lecturer starts to nag us to start writing notes and study lerx. tomorrow got 2.2 tutorial and tues got 2.2 progress test - marks not counted ; motive - to see how much we dont`t know. sure score very badly on it *sighs*
hope everyone jiayou in whatever you do (;
take care`
i will never let you go ❤
Monday, March 12, 2007
* 10:57 PM *
as what my lecturer used to illustrate. people normally don`t lie ; they only didn`t tell the truth.
is this acceptable?
i would rather i know the truth than to kept in the dark. you may think it`s curiosity; but to me; between anyone (no matter is family; friends or your loved ones), you must be truthful to the other party. no matter it`s a good or bad thing, your family/friends/loved ones will understand and won`t mind at all. you don`t have to worry what if this happens.. what if that happens.. because there is this bond that binds you all together, which makes it unique and different.
it is fate that you can be family members, friends or loved ones. i also believe that you won`t want your family/friends/loved ones to hide things from you, especially if you have something to do with the thing. so just share it together ! if there`s a problem; solve it together !
- a short sharingg of my thinkingg -
i will never let you go ❤
Sunday, March 11, 2007
* 7:40 PM *
i`m tired of guessing.
too much of coincidence things that i couldn`t bring myself to believe it.
i will rather that i know the truth ; than to keep it this way.
* depressed *
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, March 08, 2007
* 11:43 PM *
1 more working day to go and i believe tomorrow will be a busy day. got alot of undone work today and i only left the officer at 615pm whereby my lesson starts at 645pm ? but luckily i manage to reach on time.
the way the lecturer says make me feel scared for my exams. i feel so uncertain; i feel that i don`t know anything. i can`t recall those he have taught (except for minority). 87 days to 1st paper *sighs* & 88 days to last paper *lols*
hope that everyone is currently doing well; and i believe so.
short recap on jakarta`s earthquake on 6 March (Tuesday):
the 1st tremor i`ve felt is around 1150am and initially everyone thought there is something wrong with our chairs ? we looked up; saw each other`s expression and we knew something isn`t right.
heard from classmates on tuesday evening that there is a 2nd tremor at around 150pm and it`s more serious than the 1st time ? yet i didn`t feel anything. but anyway, quite a "good" experience.
* in the midst of making decisions *
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
* 12:21 AM *
whenever you feel that you are the happiest person in the world ; did you ever think that the happiness you have might bring hurt & pain to other people ?
when i didn`t pursue on the matter ; it does not mean i`m alright & i don`t care. i`m just pretending not to know ; as i know - it might hurt.
the only thing i can do is ; a simple blessing - all the best =)
*你会是我的专属天使吗?*
i will never let you go ❤
Sunday, March 04, 2007
* 9:21 PM *
this weekend is pretty ok; didn`t waste it anyway (;
saturday:
8am - 9am : Ministry of Manpower
9am - 930am : journey to tuition place
930am - 140pm : tuition
140pm - 2pm : journey to 7-11 & school
2pm - 4pm : lesson
after 4pm : out & dinner ; home sweet home
sunday:
1045am- 11am : surprise session
1115am- 2pm : klunch [ theme : happy ; emo ; oldies ; cute ; funny ]
2pm - 230pm : rotting
after 230pm : to kovan ; played photo hunt ; daytona & my 1st bowling [ fun + throw face ; papa is my teacher for bowling ] 1st round - single digit ; 2nd round - double digit lols
had dinner at kovan ; home sweet home
5 working days are ahead of me );
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, March 02, 2007
* 11:17 PM *
finally it`s weekends ~ this week was a busy week for me. OT-ing on non-lesson days and i`m really tired. *sighs* bear with it - 3 to 4 more weeks; senior is coming back and i can start concentrating on my studies lerx. i really feel that i cannot make it ? don`t know what the lecturer is talking ? hais.
* always appreciate to people who helped you before; don`t take them for granted; voice out your appreciation so that they know it`s worth it *
i will never let you go ❤
