Wednesday, April 30, 2008
* 9:00 PM *
don`t know what to do; so some updates;
30 April [ Wednesday ];
clients; systems; problems everywhere; enough to challenge my colleague & me. break down; depressed; stressed. warning; will be an emo post.
what lies ahead ?
where`s my true & good friends ?
who can i talk to ?
perhaps i`m no longer the Si Ting you people knew;
i saw the change in myself.
[ the Si Ting that mich nu`er knew; knows how to stand on her own feet ];
not sure about other people`s thinkings.
the only unchanged - still get emo easily.
feel so alone;
but on the other hand; want to be alone at times;
contradicting ?
enough of check-ups & medicine for me;
i`ve given up;
i`m tired of it.
who can understand ?
working & studying;
i know what`s the right way to go;
but at times i can`t bring myself to do think & do the right way;
i just want my carefree life;
stress from 1 mode is enough for me already;
not to mention there`s 2 & more.
i know i must learn to be independent because i`ve grown up;
learn to stand on my own feet;
to be optimstic than pessimistic.
all i need is attention; care & concern;
but how should i go about it ?
i will never let you go ❤
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
* 9:32 PM *
1 more working day to go before public holiday is here ! not sure if i should look forward to may; good & bad things coming up though.
26 April [ Saturday ];
tuition 10am - 12.30pm. took bus to amk & met up with him. had lunch at S11; bought drink from ntuc before we took bus to his mei`s house for tuition.
took bus to his house after that; rot around and went downstairs to buy food for his daddy & us. he managed to drive awhile using his daddy`s car before we buy dinner.
ate dinner & sort of join them in watching soccer match ? lols. went back his room and rot till about 11pm+. planned to take cab home; ended up he drove & sent me home; thanks (:
27 April [ Sunday ];
tuition 10am - 1.50pm. supposed to meet him at 2pm at bishan; so i ended up take cab there & confessed to him that i took cab instead of bus at the end of the day =X
had light lunch at J8; took train to amk wanted to catch a movie; but no suitable timing. so took bus to suntec instead.
bought a top from [ Iora ]; my dinner treat for him at [ Just Noodles ] - the one i tried with san jing about 3 weeks ago.
took bus back to my house; & he helped me change my bedsheet; lols. ehs; just being abit lazy =X then he went home lerx.
28 April [ Monday ];
work & work. stomach feel uncomfortable; don`t know what`s wrong also; shake head. meet up with san jing dar at bugis after work (: walked around and had dinner at [ Tea Shake Hut ]. went [ Cold Storage ]; home sweet home ~
29 April [ Tuesday ];
work & work. lesson after work; but ended early because it`s the last lecture.
* to both my students;
jiayou for exams okie !
remember to bring the stuffs you need to bring [ though it might be too late by the time you read this ];
calm down;
check your work;
don`t be careless;
& everything will be fine (:
i will never let you go ❤
Friday, April 25, 2008
* 10:55 PM *
end of 5 working days; weekend is here (:
24 April [ Thursday ];
wake up at 7am [ earlier than normal days when i`m working ]; wash up; then daddy sent me to polyclinic by 7.45am. by then my boy is already there lerx; he took bus & he`s still earlier than me. he insisted to accompany me to polyclinic; (: hugs*
registration; test; consultation; collection of medicine = 1 hour 45 minutes. & it was raining; took cab down to J8 for breakfast at [ MacDonalds ] & [ Long John Silver ] till 10.55am. then he walked to meet his instructor & i went home.
was rotting at home till he came over; and he managed to pass his TP; (: congrats* can`t deny that my heart was thumping when nearing 2pm++ [ the ending of his TP ]. but was happy for him that he made it (:
rot awhile and we went to lavendar area for dinner. took bus home and i was sort of in pain. seems worsen; sighs =(
25 April [ Friday ];
last working day of the week. went office and open email this morning; 59 new emails. faints- clearing emails and managed to see my colleague after 3 days ? lols. she was on mc on tues & wed; i was on leave yesterday. home sweet home & online.
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
* 8:54 PM *
rare that i will blog today; tomorrow on leave ! (:
20 April [ Sunday ];
slept at 2.15am the previous night & woke up at 6.45am. went market & had breakfast with parents then daddy sent me & mummy to auntie`s house. supposedly to wait for 2 uncles who will reach at 8.30am; end up they 9am+ then reach.
bring all the baibai things to the car then headed bishan to baibai lerx. mummy coincidentally saw one of her customers there [ what a place to meet people; she always met her customers at different place in singapore ]. & her customer said i looked like 16 years old ! =X then i say i treat her drink coffee next time; lols.
went to the canteen rest till 11.30am. uncle sent mummy & me out; i ask him to let me alight at the bus-stop; then he sent mummy home. took 88 to hg & meet him; then walk to imh [ wanted to surprise visit san jing ]. but abit mission failed =(
walk under the big hot sun; forgot to go imh`s toilet; ended up went hg green toilet after a long walk. had lunch at [ Long John Silver ]; took bus back to his house and rot. finally aircon after all the sun shine on me =(
went to buy dinner at coffeeshop for his daddy & ourselves. slept awhile unknowingly; went off at 9.30pm.
21 April [ Monday ];
work & work; slept at 9.30pm [ was too tired ].
22 April [ Tuesday ];
busy busy work & had lesson.
23 April [ Wednesday ];
busy busy work & online. talked to san jing on phone awhile; be her street-directory =X
i will never let you go ❤
Saturday, April 19, 2008
* 10:24 PM *
decided to come here to blog since i`ve got nothing to do now;
17 April [ Thursday ];
work & work. had lunch at previous company with ex-colleagues. it`s fun chatting and catching up with them ! =)
meet up with him at amk after work as he`s on leave; for dinner & movie [ Run Papa Run ]. home sweet home ~
*& somehow; both him & i got new nicknames =X
18 April [ Friday ];
last working day of the day; last day for the temp. treated her lunch at [ Seoul Garden ] with another 2 colleagues. think the ice-cream make me bloated; so end up go back office vomitted out abit before starting work after lunch. lols.
went home after work; rot awhile and took bus to pasir ris to meet friend for something. took cab at 10.45pm and headed home.
*& he gets to know his enlistment date as well . . . ; mixed feelings . . .
19 April [ Saturday ];
tuition 10am - 12.30pm. took bus to amk to meet him; buy tickets for [ Forbidden Kingdom ] and had lunch before took bus to tuition. ended tuition at around 4.50pm.
took bus back to amk; rot around before going in for movie. had dinner at S11; went popular buy thing; walk around amk hub before coming home.
going wake him up at 12.10am for his soccer match =)
*& mixed feelings in my mind still . . . wondering . . .
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
* 7:32 PM *
boring days for me; some updates;
10 April [ Thursday ];
work & online; chat with san jing online and discuss when to go on friday =)
11 April [ Friday ];
happy birthday to weida papa ~ may you succeed in everything you do; and all the best in your studies! stay healthy (:
work; and meet up with san jing at suntec after work (: purpose; to do some shopping and slack around. went to a few shops and decided to have dinner before continuing. went to the fountain area; and walked 1.5 rounds before we decided on what to eat. had dinner at [ Just Noodles ]. quite a worth it place to eat. continued walking around; and by the end of the day; san jing got herself 2 tops and i got myself 1 top.
took bus 70 together and i reach home at around 10.45pm.
12 April [ Saturday ];
tuition; 10am - 1.30pm. took bus to next tuition location; 3pm - 6pm. took bus to amk central with him; bought tickets for [ Three Kingdoms ]. had dinner at mos burger before we watched the movie. home sweet home ~
13 April [ Sunday ];
woke up at around 7.40am; prepared myself and took bus to J8 to meet up with him at 9.15am (: had dinner at [ MacDonalds ]; took train to town to pass something to michelle nu`er. went popular and took bus back to my house; slacked + heart-to-heart talk. took bus to kovan for dinner and he sent me home after that (:
14 April [ Monday ];
beginning of the week; work till 8.30pm and took cab home.
15 April [ Tuesday ];
happy birthday to meihui ~ jiayou in your studies and must take care of yourself okie ? shall meet up soon when you come back (:
work; and had lesson. was quite boring throughout but no choice. having mock exam next week; shake head.
16 April [ Wednesday ];
work & work. things don`t seem to go right for both my colleague & myself.
2 more working days to go;
knowing that i shouldn`t be expecting for something;
but can`t help to do so;
hopefully . . .
i will never let you go ❤
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
* 8:16 PM *
rotting; so here to update;
4 April [ Friday ];
last working day of the week. went off from work quite promptly i think & received a sms from my boy at around 6pm; asking where am i & what time i`ll reach home. sort of suspected that he will appear at some place & some time; just that don`t know where & when.
so reached my house bus-stop; and was walking along the pathway; then carpark leading to my house & saw him at my block downstairs. and he bought dinner from the coffeeshop near my house area for me (: happen that he ended work early; that`s why he came. went back home; bath; eat; headed down to amk hub as he needs to buy something. home sweet home ~
* thanks for the surprise visit & packing dinner for me (: hugs- *
5 April [ Saturday ];
meet up with him at kovan at 9.30am; and had breakfast + lunch at xin wang hongkong cafe; and wasted some food =X walked over to dbs bank and run some errands; took bus down to lavendar to see doctor.
stomach hasn`t been good and feel pain at the sides; reached there at around 11.45am; and there`s a long queue. so after registration; so walk around before going back; and finally my turn. doctor says "not enough calcium; don`t take milk + bread + cake for a week; take soya bean + barley".
took bus to amk hub to walk around cos the tuition is at 2.30pm & he managed to get a birthday present for his friend. ended tuition at around 5pm; initially plan is to go ecp; but it was raining heavily. so we can only take bus back to amk central; had dinner at the shop at jubilee #2; went popular to buy some stuffs; home sweet home ~
6 April [ Sunday ];
woke up at around 9am; had breakfast and parents sent me to tuition. supposed to meet him at singpost at 1pm; but was late; sorry. had kfc for lunch & took bus to ecp. walked for long long distance; and legs abit tired =X
with the sunny weather; we had dessert at a shop along the shophouses at marine parade; then took bus back to my house and rot. had some talks till around 9pm.
took cab to the coffeeshop around his house for dinner; but i didn`t eat much. my stomach was super pain; and i couldn`t stand straight. he accompanied me and stood at the roadside; got the feeling of vomitting; but nothing came out. was in pain till the extent i cried; stood & rest there; and was feeling better. think he was in a lost when he see me cry because of pain. took cab home after which.
7 April [ Monday ];
still feel the pain. went to RMG to see doctor; end up couldn`t have lunch with weiling jie; sorry. took urine test; and was told that got abit urine infection? gave medicine but never give mc. wanted to take time-off to leave early; i end up work till 5.30pm. went home rot on bed.
8 April [ Tuesday ];
feeling better; but still got on & off pain. left office at 2.30pm as attending a seminar in school at 3pm & it ended at around 5.15pm. it was raining heavily; but i still need to go home and get my book for lesson. went home pack bag and daddy sent me to school.
got back the test; though no marks given; but is cmi; expected. feel pain during lesson; don`t know what`s the actual problem also. home sweet home ~
9 April [ Wednesday ];
work and still feel the pain. was having headache and felt giddy this morning. work and left office at around 6pm. was having a bad headache; so slept throughout the bus journey. home sweet home ~ colleagues; jie & him advise that if it`s still the same; got to see doctor for further checks; thought chances of this is low; but the fear is still there.
2 more working days to go;
everyday seems the same for me.
- alone -
the pain seems to be on & off.
bitter medicine which i hate to take;
but i still have to take.
no guarantee recovery even i complete the course;
the fear is there;
& i`m taking it all alone.
but who will understand?
i will never let you go ❤
Thursday, April 03, 2008
* 8:52 PM *
1 more working day to go ; having mixed emotions nowadays. & i think the victim is him lerx ba [ sighs ; sorry ].
1 April [ Tuesday ];
april fool day ! work & had lessons. mich nu`er + san jing dar & him tried to bluff me respectively. but i managed to cai chuang them before they tricked me ! but they still continue. lols. my day ended well with them =)
2 April [ Wednesday ];
work & went home lie on bed. write abit of notes; bad emotions & -ve thinkings again. =(
3 April [ Thursday ];
work till 7.10pm; reached home at around 8pm. hand being injured due to hole puncher 4 times; cos when i was using the puncher; i put my hand whereby the handle will go down ? faints- almost slipped in office toilet 2 times; feel pain in body etc. what a day.
1 more working day to go; want weekends to come soon ! =(
i will never let you go ❤
